what a lucky girl I was to have you with me for a season

after finding those faces to lick, whom we both loved, curl up on a cushion next to G and Rhap.  I'll come find you when my time comes.  Don't you worry, I'll take care of D.

amidst the waning waiting

A monk said to me, at the time of brotherly loss, "according to our tradition, in 49 days, there will be a rebirth.  Be quietly aware of the possibility that you may have an experience of him again - in the eyes or voice of new creature. And on that day, it may give you comfort to make a proclamation to the Universe to celebrate the return... what will you say?"


...


"brace yourself"


Even the darkest night will end, and the sun will shine.  -V. H.

Goat Rodeo

With a hammer and nails and a fear of failure we are building a shed

Between here and heaven, between the wait and the wedding

Or as long as we both shall be dead to the world

Beyond the boys and the girls trying to keep us calm

We can practice our lines, til we're deaf and blind

To ourselves, to each other, where it's

Fall, not winter, spring, not summer, cool, not cold

And it's warm, not hot, have we all forgotten that we're getting old

Chris Thile

It's not over yet

one week and then, return

watch for the glitter in the air

that's the deal

Why love, if losing hurts so much? I have no answers anymore: only the life I have lived. Twice in that life I've been given the choice. The child chose safety, the adult chooses suffering. The pain now is part of the happiness then. That's the deal.

Shadowlands

we will all meet again