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December 17, 2013

Six Snowflakes from Michael



















Six rimed snowflakes.
Dihedral symmetry rotates,
reflects,
the quest of six decades,

the rest this ancient raven soul seeks,
exhaling frost scrolls at the sight of the Bethlehem star

hovering above everything that remains new and pure in the human spirit.

Equilateral,

equiangular,

all geometries being equal,

this aging child smiles his woodsmoke curl in the face of the advancing dark.

"It's all right,"

he whispers to himself,

as he begins to disappear.

"It's just a spell of frost.

Six snowflakes.

Melt, disappear, as you return to the Sun."


-Michael Guillen
Photos: Alexey Kljatov




December 15, 2013



Let us roll all our strength, and all of our sweetness, into one ball;  and tear our pleasures with one strife through the iron gates of life.


A. Marvell

December 6, 2013

Heaven and Earth, Awake and Sing



Your voice rose. It was in front of me, and behind me. It was above me and below me. It was on every side. And then my voice rose with your's and for a moment we were one voice. A moment later, 5000 were on their feet, arisen by the music.

December 2, 2013

KJ - JB

And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.

November 7, 2013

Sonnet 73

That time of year thou mayst in me behold
When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
Upon those boughs which shake against the cold,
Bare ruin'd choirs, where late the sweet birds sang.
In me thou seest the twilight of such day
As after sunset fadeth in the west,
Which by and by black night doth take away,
Death's second self, that seals up all in rest.
In me thou see'st the glowing of such fire
That on the ashes of his youth doth lie,
As the death-bed whereon it must expire
Consumed with that which it was nourish'd by.
   This thou perceivest, which makes thy love more strong,

   To love that well which thou must leave ere long.

October 17, 2013

somebody once whispered to her

“The witching hour, somebody had once whispered to her, was a special moment in the middle of the night when every child and every grown-up was in a deep deep sleep, and all the dark things came out from hiding and had the world all to themselves.”

Roald Dahl, The BFG

September 30, 2013

what a lucky girl I was to have you with me for a season


after finding those faces to lick, whom we both loved, curl up on a cushion next to G and Rhap.  I'll come find you when my time comes.  Don't you worry, I'll take care of D.

September 25, 2013

amidst the waning waiting

A monk said to me, at the time of brotherly loss, "according to our tradition, in 49 days, there will be a rebirth.  Be quietly aware of the possibility that you may have an experience of him again - in the eyes or voice of new creature. And on that day, it may give you comfort to make a proclamation to the Universe to celebrate the return... what will you say?"


...


"brace yourself"


Even the darkest night will end, and the sun will shine.  -V. H.

September 18, 2013

Goat Rodeo

With a hammer and nails and a fear of failure we are building a shed
Between here and heaven, between the wait and the wedding
Or as long as we both shall be dead to the world
Beyond the boys and the girls trying to keep us calm
We can practice our lines, til we're deaf and blind
To ourselves, to each other, where it's
Fall, not winter, spring, not summer, cool, not cold
And it's warm, not hot, have we all forgotten that we're getting old


Chris Thile


It's not over yet

one week and then, return

watch for the glitter in the air

September 16, 2013

that's the deal

Why love, if losing hurts so much? I have no answers anymore: only the life I have lived. Twice in that life I've been given the choice. The child chose safety, the adult chooses suffering. The pain now is part of the happiness then. That's the deal.

Shadowlands

August 28, 2013

Circle Game

Yesterday a child came out to wonder
Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star

Then the child moved ten times round the seasons
Skated over ten clear frozen streams
Words like when you're older must appease him
And promises of someday make his dreams

And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look
Behind from where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game *

Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
Cartwheels turn to car wheels thru the town
And they tell him take your time it won't be long now
Till you drag your feet to slow the circles down

And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look
Behind from where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true
There'll be new dreams maybe better dreams and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through

And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look
Behind from where we came
And go round and round and round

In the circle game


Joni Mitchell



for all those children, going ahead

August 9, 2013

July 11, 2013

The Gift

All the Hemispheres

Leave the familiar for a while.

Let your senses and bodies stretch out



Like a welcomed season

Onto the meadow and shores and hills.



Open up to the Roof.

Make a new watermark on your excitement

And love.



Like a blooming night flower,

Bestow your vital fragrance of happiness

And giving

Upon our intimate assembly.



Change rooms in your mind for a day.



All the hemispheres in existence

Lie beside an equator

In your heart.



Greet Yourself

In your thousand other forms

As you mount the hidden tide and travel

Back home.



All the hemispheres in heaven

Are sitting around a fire

Chatting



While stitching themselves together

Into the Great Circle inside of

You

Hafiz

June 18, 2013

Into White

I built my house from barley rice
Green pepper walls and water ice
Tables of paper wood, windows of light
And everything emptying into white.

A simple garden, with acres of sky
A Brown-haired dogmouse
If one dropped by
Yellow Delanie would sleep well at night
With everything emptying into white.

A sad blue eyed drummer rehearses outside
A Black spider dancing on top of his eye
Red legged chicken stands ready to strike
And everything emptying into white.

I built my house from barley rice
Green pepper walls and water ice
And everything emptying into white


Cat Stevens
Tea for the Tillerman

May 22, 2013

a Time to Every Purpose

A time to mourn

and a time to FLY...

Chase the Wind
Touch the Sky



Ecclesiates 3:1 and Julie Fowlis and me






May 20, 2013

the thing is... I will never be "ready" to say "goodbye"

that's just the deal

I will reincarnate you

I will resurrect you

I will hold you and keep you  in my heart  

until MY last day comes


and all I have left is my love for you

to leave behind

May 1, 2013

The Missing Pieces of Scoundrel Rocco

Time's Come

cat's out the bag
lid's off the pot
the fox's in the chicken coup
the bear's out of the cave
the beans are spilled


let the chips fall as they may

we'll see if the shit hits the fan

April 1, 2013


Marlene watches from the wall
Her mocking smile says it all
As she records the rise and fall
Of every man who's been here
But the only one here now is me
I'm fighting things I cannot see
I think it's called my destiny
That I am changing

Suzanne Vega

March 31, 2013

Wallin

I have failed you, I have failed you,
I have closed my heart, I have failed you,
But I love you, how I love you,
All my days were rearranged to say I love you.

Oh, setting sun, don't sink before I've found my heart;
Heart, don't give up now while there's still time;
Time, don't beat your old retreat,
Stay a little while with me, 'til I've looked the whole thing in the eye.

I have waited, I have waited
For the big reveal, the even keel, I've waited,
But there's no one who makes it all come true,
Just altars gathering dust while we bow to them.

Oh, night, bring all your shadows and your silence;
Silence, make a hostage of my mind;
Mind, bring on your trickery;
Black dogs, nip on at my heels, 'til I've looked the whole thing in the eye.

Swing low, sail high,
Swing low, sail high.

Oh, setting sun, don't weep for all the things you lose,
Morning comes as sure as it must die.
Dying is such mystery,
Yet I wonder will it be,
when I've looked the whole thing in the eye?

March 14, 2013

"Beverly Home"


I felt about the circular hall… as I felt about the place where, between our lives on this earth, we go back to mingle with other souls waiting to be born… all these weirdoes and me, getting a little better every day right in the middle of them.  I had never known, I had never even imaged for a heartbeat, that there might be a place in the world for people like us.


 Denis Johnson

March 5, 2013

The Remote Creative

Phoning in demands

through two pieces of wax paper

and a layer of aluminum foil

Inconveniently timed



Stuck in the waiting room

no other place I need to be more

but the two and a half possibilities
that have popped up since last night


and still the demand
screams

January 15, 2013

dance

We have come to be danced
Not the pretty dance
Not the pretty pretty, pick me, pick me dance
But the claw our way back into the belly
Of the sacred, sensual animal dance
The unhinged, unplugged, cat is out of its box dance
The holding the precious moment in the palms
Of our hands and feet dance.

We have come to be danced
Not the jiffy booby, shake your booty for him dance
But the wring the sadness from our skin dance
The blow the chip off our shoulder dance.
The slap the apology from our posture dance.

We have come to be danced
Not the monkey see, monkey do dance
One two dance like you
One two three, dance like me dance
but the grave robber, tomb stalker
Tearing scabs and scars open dance
The rub the rhythm raw against our soul dance.

We have come to be danced
Not the nice, invisible, self-conscious shuffle
But the matted hair flying, voodoo mama
Shaman shakin’ ancient bones dance
The strip us from our casings, return our wings
Sharpen our claws and tongues dance
The shed dead cells and slip into
The luminous skin of love dance.

We have come to be danced
Not the hold our breath and wallow in the shallow end of the floor dance
But the meeting of the trinity, the body breath and beat dance
The shout hallelujah from the top of our thighs dance
The mother may I?
Yes you may take 10 giant leaps dance
The olly olly oxen free free free dance
The everyone can come to our heaven dance.

We have come to be danced
Where the kingdom’s collide
In the cathedral of flesh
To burn back into the light
To unravel, to play, to fly, to pray
To root in skin sanctuary
We have come to be danced

WE HAVE COME.


by Jewel Mathieson
http://jewelm.net

January 1, 2013

Time to Learn How to Fly

Run and tell all of the angels
This could take all night
Think I need a devil to help me get things right
Hook me up a new revolution
Cause this one is a lie
We sat around laughing and watched the last one die


I think I'm done nursing the patience
It can wait one night
I'd give it all away if you give me one last try
We'll live happily ever trapped if you just save my life
Run and tell the angels that everything's alright


Fly along with me, I can't quite make it alone
Try to live this life my own (and)
Fly along with me, I can't quite make it alone
Try to live this life my own. . .

I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking cause I'm tired of trying
Make my way back home when I learn to. . .