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December 24, 2009

My Christmas Wish







That each of us, whether we are alone, surrounded by fellow patients, or carefully, lovingly, carving out time with those we wish to love well, find the little miracle we need this Christmas. Reassurance, support, renewed stamina to fight the hard battles of humility that illness brings, acceptance and promise, and maybe, just maybe, a little magic -- just enough to remind us that we are, ever, beloved children, forever growing.

Amen

December 23, 2009

Blessed






Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love! ~Hamilton Wright Mabie

December 18, 2009

Longfellow

I heard the bells on Christmas day
Their old familiar carols play
And mild and sweet the words repeat,
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

I thought how as the day had come,
The belfries of all Christendom
Had roll'd along th' unbroken song
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

And in despair I bow'd my head:
"There is no peace on earth," I said,
"For hate is strong, and mocks the song
Of peace on earth, good will to men."

Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
"God is not dead, nor doth He sleep;
The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,
With peace on earth, good will to men."

'Til ringing, singing on its way,
The world revolved from night to day,
A voice, a chime, a chant sublime,
Of peace on earth, good will to men

December 12, 2009

The Pickwick Papers

Happy, happy Christmas, that can win us back to the delusions of our childish days; that can recall to the old man the pleasures of his youth; that can transport the sailor and the traveller, thousands of miles away, back to his own fire-side and his quiet home! ~Charles Dickens, The Pickwick Papers, 1836

December 1, 2009

Rob Rocks!!!

Cancer Horoscope for week of December 3, 2009

Lately you remind me of the person Robert Hass describes in his poem "Time and Materials": "someone falling down and getting up and running and falling and getting up." I'm sending you my compassion for the times you fall down, and my admiration for the times you get up, and my excitement for the times you run. It has probably become clear to you by now that the falling down isn't a shameful thing to be cursed, but rather is an instrumental part of the learning process that is teaching you marvelous secrets about getting back up and running.

November 21, 2009

to hard fought battles

in glory and in defeat,

it was your journey that was heroic

and I am proud of you...

November 15, 2009

my friend, walking darkness, again

The Beauty Will Reveal itself

Be both relaxed and alert; receptive and excitable; surrendered to the truth and in intimate contact with your primal power. Then the song will sing itself. The dream will interpret itself. The beauty will reveal itself.

Rob Brezny

November 2, 2009

Wicked

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately:
"Everyone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity

October 27, 2009

fyi, my dog looks nothing like this


appropo

Israeli poet Yehuda Amichai (1924-2000) witnessed the full range of experiences that life on this planet has to offer, from war to love and everything in between. During an interview he gave in Jerusalem in 1994, he said, "I can stand on my balcony and tell my children, 'Over there I was shelled for the first time, and over there, to the right, just beneath those trees, I was kissed for the first time.'" I suspect his words will soon be meaningful for you, Cancerian. It's likely you'll have a breakthrough or epiphany near a place where you once suffered disappointment. Halloween costume suggestion: the phoenix.

October 4, 2009

there have been worse days





Celebrating harvest and watching a cancer recovering grandmother cry as she was serenaded a well deserved "happy birthday" song..., there are worst ways to spend a day.

September 24, 2009

laughter of children

Hem (ish)

Think of every town you've lived in
every room you lay your head
and what is it that you remember?

Do you carry every sadness with you
every hour your heart was broken
every night the fear and darkness
lay down with you

I am carrying this scrap of paper
that can crack the darkest sky wide open
every burden taken from me
every night my heart unfolding...

words
"it's okay"

September 11, 2009

prayer for the day

Dear Goddess, You pregnant slut who scorns all mediocre longing:

I pray that you will inspire all the compassionate rascals communing with this prayer to love their enemies just in case their friends turn out to be jerks.

Provoke them to throw away or give away all the things they own that encourage them to believe that they are better than anyone else.

Show them how much fun it is to brag about what they cannot do and do not have.

Most of all, Goddess, brainwash them with your freedom so that they never love their own pain more than anyone else's pain.

Dear Goddess, You psychedelic mushroom cloud at the center of all our brains:

The curiously divine human beings reading this prayer deserve everything they are yearning for and much, much more.

So please bless them with lucid dreams while they are wide awake and solar-energy-operated sex toys that work even in the dark and vacuum cleaners for their magic carpets and a knack for avoiding other people's hells and their very own 900 number so that everyone has to pay to talk to them

September 1, 2009

blackbird

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to ARRIVE

Black bird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
all your life
you were only waiting for this moment TO BE FREE

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the LIGHT OF THE DARK BLACK NIGHT.


Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arrive,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

July 11, 2009

YIKES!!!














The things my brother does... the only way to relieve yourself of pain is to face it, to transcend it, to make it your allie.

June 26, 2009

a note on work

Anyone who knows me well will know that we've been on a bit of rollercoaster ride with one of my projects. As I was leaving today for the studio to do the sound effects loop for the Summer show, we got news that the film, that has brought ugliness and hatred to light in the last month, has been picked up by ECHO BRIDGE ENTERTAINMENT. What a ride.

June 13, 2009

the rest between the notes

My life is not this steeply sloping hour,
in which you see me hurrying.
Much stands behind me: I stand before it like a tree:
I am only one of my many mouths
and at that, the one that will be still the soonest.
I am the rest between two notes,
which are somehow always in discord
because deaths note wants to climb over-
but in the dark interval, reconciled,
They stay here trembling.
And the song goes on, beautiful.

Ranier Maria Rilke

June 4, 2009

I'm NOT gonna cry, but I'll miss you and be smiling

You and I will meet again
When we're least expecting it
One day in some far off place
I will recognize your face
I won't say goodbye my friend
For you and I will meet again
~Tom Petty

May 20, 2009

Love an Artist

This is what it is to love an artist:
The moon is always rising above your house.
The houses of your neighbors look dull and lacking in moonlight.
But he is always going away from you.
Inside his head,
there is always something more beautiful.
- from Eurydice, by Sarah Ruhl

May 17, 2009

Home Again


When I'm with you
we stay up all night
When you're not here
I can't get to sleep
Thank god for these two insomnias
and the difference between them.

Rumi

April 21, 2009

One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore. ~André Gide

April 8, 2009

still

I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope for hope
would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:
So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.


T.S. Eliot

VFF 2009

VFF





WFG

I got off that boat with nothing but my dancer's belt and a tube of chapstick!
~waiting for guffman

April 1, 2009

what a wonder, my baby Gigi

I believe
fate smiled and destiny
laughed as she came to my cradle
"know this child will be able"
laughed as my body she lifted
"know this child will be gifted
with love, with patience
and with faith
she'll make her way"


Natalie Merchant

March 7, 2009

Holly's witticism

Upon ordering dessert:

"I know AIDS seems important,
but how about finding a cure for nut allergies"

February 14, 2009

every now and then....




You are reminded of how blessed you are. Blessed for having Holly to back me up and believe in me (however ironic "blessed" and "Holly" in the same sentence maybe). For Jeanne's cooking and ticket finding and care. For those little serendipities - G calling from Montreal just when I needed his voice, Danielle walking onto the lot just as I'm walking off. Talking to Jenice. Doug's support and generosity. Mark; too many grateful thoughts, no one word is worthy. Just Mark. Meridith's tireless (well, tired and sick actually) persistence. Vanessa... Vanessa. Erik in the waiting room. Libby, knowing you belong here. And Nic, just knowing that you'll still love me either way. I am one seriously lucky girl!

many faces of love


I seem to have loved you in numberless times, in life after life, in age after age, forever.
~ Rabindranath Tagore

February 7, 2009

VVG-thinking of Dad

For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream.
~ Vincent Van Gogh

February 1, 2009

do you hear what I hear??

MY GOD, she's figured out music! A long list, and only semi-organized, woefully incomplete right now, but feel free to check it out, and download to realplayer LEGALLY!

January 20, 2009

Langston Hughes, thoughts for yesterday, today, TOMORROW

America is a dream.
The poet says it was promises.
The people say it is promises-that will come true.
The people do not always say things out loud,
Nor write them down on paper.
The people often hold
Great thoughts in their deepest hearts
And sometimes only blunderingly express them,
Haltingly and stumblingly say them,
And faultily put them into practice.
The people do not always understand each other.
But there is, somewhere there,
Always the trying to understand,
And the trying to say,
"You are a man. Together we are building our land."

America!
Land created in common,
Dream nourished in common,
Keep your hand on the plow! Hold on!
If the house is not yet finished,
Don’t be discouraged, builder!
If the fight is not yet won,
Don’t be weary, soldier!
The plan and the pattern is here,
Woven from the beginning
Into the warp and woof of America:
ALL MEN ARE CREATED EQUAL.
NO MAN IS GOOD ENOUGH
TO GOVERN ANOTHER MAN
WITHOUT HIS CONSENT.
BETTER DIE FREE,
THAN TO LIVE SLAVES.
Who said those things? Americans!
Who owns those words? America!
Who is America? You, me!
We are America!
To the enemy who would conquer us from without,
We say, NO!
To the enemy who would divide
And conquer us from within,
We say, NO!
FREEDOM!
BROTHERHOOD!
DEMOCRACY!
To all the enemies of these great words:
We say, NO!

January 1, 2009

2009


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